Looking back at my teenage years going through School, College and University, I now realize how much I needed to know the truth about Jesus and the love he has for me.
I grew up in a non-christian family and very much went along and just accepted things without question. I didn't have any male role models to look up to and learn from and I believe this had a big impact on my confidence, self esteem & self worth. Being a sensitive person it didn't take very much for me to feel hurt or effected by something said, however unintentional.
It was during my early twenties that I really went off piste in most areas of my life. I was trying to fill the emptiness that I felt inside. It's strange because throughout that period I always felt there had to be a creator to everything otherwise what would be the point. It was living without a purpose that was my biggest struggle.
When I was in my mid-twenties my older sister took my family by surprise and she gave her life to God. She seemed to have this overnight transformation. It was as though a heavy burden had been lifted from her. I was very intrigued by her testimony and it was at this point my journey to knowing Jesus really began.
Now if I was going to accept Jesus as my Saviour and submit fully to him, I wanted to leave no stone unturned!! It actually took me 3 Alpha courses and countless questions before I could find no other reason to delay what I already new in my heart.
I soon realized you can always find difficult questions that are often too tricky to answer. Ultimately it just comes down to taking a step of faith.
Hebrews 11, gives the best definition of faith where it states;
"Faith is the confidence in what we hope for and the assurance about what we do not see"
Since giving my life to Jesus my journey has not been without the occasional blip and I've not suddenly become Mr Perfect. I know Hannah my wife will back me up on this point!!
However what I can honestly say is that since taking that step of faith almost 9 years ago, my life has transformed for the good and I'm in a far better place. I now have purpose and a heavenly father who I know loves me and wants the best for me.